Ignore this lol
It's lame cheesy and I don't want any sympathy
I just needed to post something
Sometimes I just want to left alone and be able to listen to music and that's it.
I'd rather feel my music.
I'm such a sucker for sad music
A lot of the music on my ipod are sad love songs
It's kinda funny really
You know how they say that if you go through a person's music, you can learn more about them?
I guess you'd learn that I feel desperate
But don't want to be desperate
I'm desperate for one thing
But no matter how hard I try, I know that it's just disappointment after disappointment
Subconsciously I know it isn't worth trying
Not worth my effort...time...feelings.
But I still for some strange reason try
I hang onto something that's killing me from the inside
I want to let go but I just can't bring myself to do it.
Forcing myself let go won't help
It does nothing but make me want to hang on even longer
It's been so long that It doesn't even feel like anything
But I still allow myself to hang on
My friends ask me if I'm ok
I don't think I've been ok for a long time
Maybe soon though
I'll be able to say I'm ok
and mean it